Thursday, September 16, 2010

I Will Go

So I decided that in order to encourage myself and "keep the faith" as I wait through this process of raising support, I would make an"acts of faith" list: things that remind me and show me that I will indeed be leaving for Mexico through God's provision. One of those things is making a CD of some of the songs that have been influential to me these past two years on the path to missions.

There's one song by Marcela Gandara that talks about being a long journey but at last arriving, and being exactly where God wants me. This song motivated me with the idea of this CD. I want to make this CD and play it when I move there! And I know that there will be times after I have moved that I will waiver, and I would like to have this CD to remind me of God's calling.

So I've been starting to put it together, and though there are many songs on there that mean so much to me, I will share simply one with you now. This song was our theme song at the Fall spiritual emphasis retreat (at ICA) after the first summer interning in Mexico with TIME. That summer was when I really began to think about if I wanted to go into missions instead of teaching. I came home from Mexico knowing I wanted to go back for more, but still not sure about if I wanted to make this my new life. At first in hearing this song, I couldn't sing it! The words meant so much more for me to sing than I think it did for the rest of the people in that room. But being the theme song, it was sung again and again and again! By the end of the retreat, I allowed myself to sing along, beginning to truly believe what I sang. The song is entitled, "I Will Go" by Starfield.